Starting with the Bad and the Ugly: For almost two years, I have been a part of a group of fabulous ladies online. We all came looking for one thing- to have a healthy baby. Many of them also blog like I do and many read others’ blogs. One person posted a link to a blog that I have not been able to get out of my head. This family had a complicated pregnancy which resulted in the little girl being born pre-term, then at 17 months this past April she passed away from complications due to being born pre-term. The mother and father both write blogs about their struggle to cope (which doesn’t seem like the right word but I am going with it) with this tragedy. I can’t stop reading the posts over and over. And has bad as it is even though I have only been a mother for a year I feel like it is a kick in the face (not even butt - it is worse) to remind me to not take my time with Jackson for granted. Not to take my time with anyone for granted but especially this little person I prayed for, dreamed of and love before I knew him. He is my gift that keeps giving. Life will always try to get in the way and tell you these little things are important and the important things are little and can wait. I am guilty of those thoughts from time to time. Well they can’t wait! There will come a day when Jackson won’t let us hold him for his bottle, a day when it will be uncool to be so excited to see us when we get home, and a day when he doesn’t live in our house and we don’t see him everyday. As much as we hate to think of those days, we want our kids to reach those milestones as well. I want Jackson to make it to college and move out on his own- I want him, Jason and I to experience what my parents and I did – Crying at the lunch table the day they dropped me off for college. I feel the job I am called to do is not the job I receive a bi-weekly deposit from, but the one that doesn’t pay me in dollars. My job is to be the wife and mother I dream of!
Now to the Good: Our Jackson Tyler is 1 year old! I can’t believe it. The time has flown by. We had a great birthday party and he got covered and I mean COVERED! Then on his actual birthday we went to the zoo! What a great time! I recently watched video from when he was 3 months and it is so hard to believe that little baby is the same big boy who is walking around the house, so full of personality. I am so excited to see what this year holds for us!
Now to the Good: Our Jackson Tyler is 1 year old! I can’t believe it. The time has flown by. We had a great birthday party and he got covered and I mean COVERED! Then on his actual birthday we went to the zoo! What a great time! I recently watched video from when he was 3 months and it is so hard to believe that little baby is the same big boy who is walking around the house, so full of personality. I am so excited to see what this year holds for us!
